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what I wore: the anatomy ultrasound

top: target maternity, jeans: motherhood (clearance-similar), flats: russia, necklace: c/o Choies, watch: no longer sold (similar)
22 Weeks

A few weeks back we had our anatomy ultrasound appointment. It’s been one of those appointments that I think I’ve been excited for and nervous about all in the same breath.  When I arrived at the appointment I had nervous butterflies and waiting for forty minutes didn’t help. The ultrasound tech called me back and we started the ultrasound. He started scanning, and freezing pictures, and measuring -this little girl is quite the mover already. And then I saw this weird bubble-looking-thing near the umbilical cord. I asked the ultrasound tech what it was and of course he wasn’t allowed to tell me, which didn’t give me any confidence.  He then went and tracked the blood flow of the umbilical cord which looked good and it didn’t look like there were any problems.

Long story short, we were sent outside to wait for the results and then got called back in to talk to my doctor (routine at every appointment so far).  She said that our baby is growing healthy and strong and everything looks good, the only small thing they found was a “cyst” on the umbilical cord. I was shocked and scared all in one moment. She said that it’s not a big deal, she has seen it before, and that she wasn’t worried about it, but that just to get a second opinion she wanted to send me to a specialist. 

Brand’s sister is in sonography school and because Brand wasn’t able to go with me to the appointment earlier that day we headed to her school that afternoon so he could take a look for him self. I was again reassured by her teacher that there wasn’t anything to worry about and honestly, having Brand see it and the worry leave his face gave me a boost of hope. (When I saw the ultrasound again the “cyst” looked more like a bubble and was more near the top of the umbilical cord on the placenta wall.)

I’ll admit, after the first ultrasound I kinda had a break down. All these horrible thoughts went through my mind: what if my baby wasn’t going to be okay and what if we were going to loose her? I couldn’t imagine either thought. I wanted her to be okay. I’ve been wanting this little one for oh-so-long, I couldn’t imagine her being taken away from me so soon. 

I remember all the pain and sadness not having a baby made me feel, but then I remembered how I got through it all. I trusted in the Lord. That His will would be done, and that everything would work out. Since the appointment I’ve felt these little kicks, and punches, and all the movement that goes on in there, I’m so blessed to have this beautiful gift, to be able to be a mom. Something I’ve only wanted for my whole entire life. I love this little baby so much already, I can’t imagine what it’s going to be like when she gets here! 

And now I patiently wait for my appointment with the specialist… which is today… three weeks later. 

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Comments

  1. It seems to take forever to get them here but the day she finally comes and you get to hold her in your arms is worth every anticipated moment. And the last weeks drag. Also the cyst thing, it will be ok. Aria had the same thing only they found them on her brain but they went away. They say sometimes it's just the technology advancing in the ultrasounds they get to see more than they used to so things like cysts are perfectly normal. And the worrying never goes away. Even when she gets here you worry about is she eating enough, is she going to get sick. Mine is only 4 days old and I worry about the dating thing. It will all be ok in the end 🙂 you look gorgeous bytheway and congrats!!

    Nightchayde

  3. I've never had a baby so I can only imagine how scary it can all be! I am sending good thoughts that everything continues to go smoothly!

  11. My fingers are crossed all goes well with the specialist. My son I had in March 2014 had some issues on his ultrasound. His heart was developing wrong and it was hard on me because I just had my niece (my sisters daughter) pass away from a heart issue at 16 months. I was a total wreck. Your allowed to worry. Everything will be okay, your in my thoughts!

  12. You look absolutely adorable, and try to keep positive, I worried about my son like crazy before he got here, and 21 months later I'm still worrying. haha, it never goes away. 🙂 Praying everything is great with your little one!

  13. You are adorable pregnant. I love that you're pregnant and still stylish, the necklace totally completes the look. I'm sending you positive vibes and prayers for your baby girl!

  16. You look amazing! I am praying for you – I remember how it felt to want my little so bad, and I pray that no one has to go through anything bad with their own children! God bless! <3

  20. I hope everything goes well at your appointment today. I remember with my daughters anatomy scan they found a dark spot on her heart and we had to wait a month to get in with a specialist… everything ended up fine but even though they were telling me it was probably nothing, I broke down too – you just want everything to be perfect and your little baby to be healthy. Big hugs mama!!

  21. Praying for you – I know exactly what it feels like to walk into that appointment and get scary news. With my second (Levi) they told us that he was going to be born with clubfoot and that he had two large cysts on his brain. They didn't think he'd make it to birth. But he is 10 months old now, happy, healthy, with no cysts. He's got clubfoot but is doing great with treatment! Everything will be okay! Thinking of you!

  23. First of all, I love that you have a cute outfit picked out for your ultrasound 🙂

    Second, having a baby is such a stressful thing. I used to stress over every little bit when I was pregnant with my first. The anxiety lessens with the second if it makes you feel better. Ultrasounds have a way of worrying you though. It can get so crazy. I'm sure all is well 🙂

  24. I don't have children but I am sure I would be just a ball of nerves as well! You are doing so great, your little one will be here soon!

  27. I love the necklace! Sending lots of prayers and positive thoughts your way! I just had my first child 5 weeks and I remember being anxious before every appointment too. Hang in there!

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